We got back on the 19th to Texas and the first few hours were just surreal. My friend Tricia and my mom picked us up at the airport. On the way home, I popped in to see Jennifer at her store (that is so cool to say - her store). Anyway, I have gotten to see my sis and her family, my mom, and my bro, Mike and oodles of friends who have come by to visit. It was so nice going to church yesterday and hugging the necks of so many people that help me be a better person for God.
One song that we sang in church yesterday is one that we just sang last week in China. It is hard to believe that last Sunday, we were in China worshipping God! And hearing that song made me feel my life was connected. I feel so blessed to have this opportunity to be in China. I feel like God has a purpose for our lives by us being there. Of course, I have not had the burning bush yet saying "Hello, MB do this". It sure would be easier that way, wouldn't it? I think it may be an evolution, not revolution that God is working in me.
One thing that I did catch in the sermon on Sunday, amidst the zoning out I have been doing due to jet lag is HAPPINESS vs. JOY. Happiness is temporary, joy is in your heart because of God's love in us. I can honestly say, right now, I feel God's joy in my life. Joy is there regardless of circumstances. The U.S. needs God's joy right now. Most times, I am in my Shanghai bubble and don't deal with this head on. There were times in my life that I was seeking happiness. Now God has a hunger in me to seek joy. By seeking joy, I can do more for God because he's doing more in me. At least that's my prayer right now.
I just got through a Bible Study called
Breaking Free by Beth Moore. It was pretty heavy. It was pretty deep. And I just feel so blessed that being in China with help around the house and with our children is enabling me to grow my faith in the East. In this season, I am receiving God's love and not serving for Him. This is really hard for me. I feel God is telling me to sit back. Be a Mary, not a Martha. He's got to do a few things in me before I can do some things for Him.
One hard thing is I have so many people that support me and help me with my faith in the West here in Texas. I miss my friends here. I get strength from the love from my family.
Anyway you put it, it is nice to be back.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!